everything's expanding

I have been so happy lately, in a way that has amazed me. Life is exciting to me again, and I feel free-to think, act, and love the way that I feel is right. It's like once I decided I was done with church, everything has just simplified, as I don't have to worry about what the church or members of it think of me (for the most part). I can focus on actually being kind to others, and myself.
For most of my adult life, I've been pretty cynical when it came to romantic love and marriage, probably because it had been pushed down my throat in various arenas, and even though I thought I was a "typical Mormon," whatever that is, I really have always felt quite uncomfortable fitting into certain expectations that I just don't believe in. So now that those things have all lifted, it's strange, I don't feel a sense of hopelessness in my future. I trust myself. I feel like if my life stays the same as it is now, I will be very happy. But I also can truly see the possibility of finding love or marriage in my life, which I have never believed was possible.
I have felt so amazingly lucky to have friends and family members in my life who understand what I have been going through, and also understand the new and exciting parts of my life. I have been enjoying so much, and without all the worry I have had in the past few years. I have an amazing job that allows me to meet great people, see the world, and just have a good time, while also being a kind of community I haven't felt in Mormonism for years. And one that I fit in a lot better. It's funny, when I was trying to decide whether to stay or go, I read and heard all kinds of warnings, of how "you'll never be happy if you leave" and "this is where you belong," and it kind of scared me like maybe they knew what they were talking about. But, truth is, I had to listen to myself, and I really felt like I would be okay, and hey, looks like listening to myself wasn't such a bad idea after all.